Friday, 23 November 2012

23/11

it's been a week now since my mom suffered a stroke...

1/4 of her brain has been damaged, i pray not fully damaged but rather affected. her entire left side is paraslyed and i suspect her partial sights and hearing as well. not to mention her speech.

my grace to God that she still speaks abit slowly and unclear, she can still recognise me- her daughter, my names and the names of other people.

it's difficult and frustrating when i look at my options. it doesnt halp matter that i'm an only child of a widowed mother and i live so far away. or that my studies are incomplete stopping companies from hiring me.

Listen! is paper qualifications so important??? i assist 1 Director, 1 Departmental Manager, 1 Departmental Asst. Manager, 4 managers and 2 asst. managers in additional to making various reports & analysis, e-marketing, updation of attendance & leave through HRIS and various miscellaneous tasks. And i still am not good enough??? WTF!
i wish i had bargained harder with regards to my puny salary before i joined but then i had no one to guide me, and it's too late to regret.
20000/- seemed like alot...but then i realised i was shortchanged by at least 8000/- and when i do try looking out for a better opportunity i get held back by my lack in paper qualifications. i wished someone i knew, also realised the importance of this but all he says is talent and experience counts. look at bill gate & steve job. Hello!, do i look like a computer nerd to you??? wtf...
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been peppering my post with wtf... but then WTF.
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i wish to take my mom back to bangalore where i currently reside & work but i can't take her now. i still have to wait for a further and minimum of  2 weeks before she can take a flight. i have 7000 change in my bag and her bills are 7000/- per day. wtf..


will tomorrow be a better day for me?? i hope so too.


did i mention that there are no direct flight to bangalore?? no i have been turned down by various airlinese??? wtf...


 

Wednesday, 21 November 2012

role reversal

 
To be really honest, i'm pretty much confused on what to do.. being an only child of a widowed mother. it's difficult to be suddenly be taking of one's parents when they are unable to look after themselves. Somehow while growing up and living our life, we always assume that our parents are always as strong and healthy as they were when we were toddlers. It's a shock to know...the fragility of life and that they are slowly losing their strength and the roles have changed. Now we are the ones who have to take care of our parents as they once did, when we were unable too...
 
 
 

Saturday, 17 November 2012

unfortunate series of events

this year the festive season has really been bad for me. As usual i was too occupied or far away to celebrate with my family or rather my mom and second the place i stayed was too noisy for my liking. (check out my earlier post)

Now towards the end of the season...i received news that my mom is sick. Given the fact that my relative on my mom's side was prone to being easily spooked and worring unnessarily i did pay much heed when they called to inform me that she's been taken ill and they are currently taking her to the hospital. What did get me worried was that  started calling me every hour or so asking when i was reaching.

I left my office in the middle of the work day, after receiving news that's apparently she is not able to move her arms & legs.  i was literally on the verge of bursting out in tears.... . . . .

Praise the Lord at i'm surrounded by loving and generous ppl around me. Viky a good friend of mr. d bought me my flight tickets and his uncle & aunt gave me some cash. I do not know how they managed that cus i knew that even they were having some problem.

i do not know what is worse... me being too far away or me being unable to help even if i was near. but i really do feel the pinch of living so far away from my mom. should anything happen- i would be an orphan without even my mom ever seeing my marriage or her grand kids.
mr. d tells me to be optimistic....and i am hopefull but at the same time i think i need to be prepared for all sort of possibilities.

right now, im waiting in the airport awaiting to board my flight to delhi then a connecting flight to ktm in the evening. A crazy sheduled pitstop  of roughly 16hrs await me in ktm before moving on to siliguri to a neurological hospital in Siliguri.
to be really frank, i do not have good memories or impression of the same hospital as my father was also hospitalised there in 2004  for close to 40 odd days. I sincerely hope that things have changed for the better now, instead of it being the same commercialised business it was.

i pray now, thankful to the heavens for me being so graced with good friends who are willing to help me out in whatever small ways and means they could, can and will. and i hope that all will end well.
 

Thursday, 15 November 2012

blast fm the past..

A 2009 note of mine... no idea what had caused me to write this note... had a dream that i couldnt quite figure out the reasons why and felt like recalling my past...
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3 yrs on, it still doesnt make sense to me... T___T
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how is it tat with all the inventions & progressive technology tat we hav now, more than a minute ago,,
it's just USELESS?

it doesnt matter wat we do or don do....everything is jus is how it is, & how it is supposed to be....


the older we get, more we wanna change back the time.........to when we were young... when immortality seemed real..... not jus an illusion.

we hav more faith now, in the GOD almighty but less hope for one another.........Y?

we are the fallen ones.... and the only way we can rise is to help the other one rise.... ever heard of the story of heaven & hell? in hell, everyone was hungry, & staving but they couldnt eat as they only had chopsticks 6 ft long to eat with. in heaven ppl were happy & healthy, even chubby....wonder why?
coz they were feeding each other....

things are the same, all over.... & nothings gonna change but ur ability & freedom of choice of what ur gonna do the next minute.

Wednesday, 14 November 2012

Tuesday, 13 November 2012

Noise Pollution

i know it's Diwali here in India, and the people here love to burst fire crackers but i honestly fucking hate the bloody Crackers...
i dont understand why the ppl in this apartment colony has to fucking burst crackers till wee hours in the morning and start the fucking routine again at 5 am!!! WTF????

i'm sorry for my language but seriously Jesus, don't these ppl have ears or what? all the noise pollution and bursts of the crackers sound just like bomb blast and it brings back bad memories for me.  What will it take for people to realize that these practise does not celebrate the victory of good over evil but rather vice versa??? does all that noise that deafens one's hearing really help anyone in any way??? what the hell?? do they all wish to become deaf or what???

it is not like in Nepal, we dont burst fire crackers- we do ok! but to a certain limit. we dont go beyond 10pm and definitely we start around 8-9am not at f#$%^  5AM- even before the roosters crows... plus in my opinion the type of crackers are more of visuals than bomb blast sounds.
 
In addition the bursting of the fire crackers takes place near the car park, should by any chance the crackers cause the petrol in the car to ignite the entire colony would definitely be flattened. IT's already been four days, and yet they continue. WTH????


i know it looks pretty but i still fucking HATE IT!!

plus the entire family comes out to play or rather burst the fire crackers. Don't they have anything better to do??? What values are these irresponsible parents teaching their kids? to be like them? Burst crackers every diwali till they can't hear anymore or torment their neighbours day and night till they get cursed to death??

Do they really have nothing Better to do on DIWALI???

here is 2 videos, see how they celebrate Diwali.


 



imagine the frustration of having to live with such ruckus for hours on end, everyday -early morning & late night.






Diwali

Today's Diwali so  happy Diwali everyone!

Not much going on... been occupied with work and due to ethical codes cant really deluge much info on what i have been up too.... HAha, that sounds like i'm working on some top secret project heh... but nah... just some boring paperworks.. had like 2 reports + 1 project plus a few other stuffs to keep me on my toes at work...

i also prepared some light breakfast + lunch for some of my mates. What can i say... it's Diwali, a time for celebrations and get together...

One of the dishes i made was Sel Roti, a traditional Nepali rice doughnuts made especially during Dashain & Tihar. [ if you want the recipe, vist my other blog]  Since the recipe i learnt from my "Phupu" (paternal aunt) require the rice to be soaked at least overnight and the rotis to be made somewhat early in the morning.... i literally had nightmares about me not making the rotis in time and etc etc... sufficient to say i woke up at 4.30am on a Sunday, after going to bed around midnightish... @_@

but..
the hard work paid off
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1. Sel Roti
2. Peanut rice
3. Alu Dum
4. Pongal (w/coconut)
5. Channa fry
6. Tomato Chutney

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Fish Fry. I was pleased to have been given an extra fish head. Yippee!! 2 fish heads for the price of one! that's 4 half a fish head for my 4 fish head lovers in my flat. Was i lucky or not?? #^____^#

unfortunately got no pics of myself... but here's a pic of my 2 mates...

on another not, it is said that during Diwali/Tihar oe should get some new gold or silver and as expected there are numerous offers from all of the Jewellery shops.. one of my fav. Tanishq has released a festive collection but  light-weight gold jewels..

some of the ones i really like are:


all three are below Rs10K , USD 200/- which is actually very reasonable ( like for Bangalore... T__T)...
i know i know, it's all very traditional and aunty design but that's what i like in gold jewels. after all gold is in investment but a liability to life when worn. @___@
 
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in the evening my sweet young Nepali bhaini organised a get-together: very tamed but hey it's the thoughts that count. ^__^''
lots of food.... um...drinks...er .... breezers & beers (unfortunately i had a cold so didnt drink T____T )  and dance.







Thursday, 8 November 2012

Kitty madness

the Hello Kitty madness has officially hit me again.
I thought i was over it but it seems not...
ever since i saw this
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and it's fellow mates... as mentioned in my earlier post... i have not been able to stop thinking or planning to get the 3 mates.
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Finally i did it...
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for the following Sunday after my 1st encounter, i ordered a Happy Meal (**what else***) o_O and bought the "Prizie Kitty"
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also got the very unhealthy but damm tasty and addictive Peri Peri fries..

Burger is not mine lah... X__X


i managed to jazzifirzed my plain old McEggMuffin to deli standard....
by adding peri peri fries


and then taking a bit of chicken fm mr. d's burger ...



along with some lettuce..



Tada!!!


 but needless to say, nothing beats this!!!





still not content
the very next day.... took 2 colleague to  have dinner at McD's ... i know damn detrimental to our aging bodies but who cares??

Coz i  bought
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 the 3rd Kitty!!!
 
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and maybe because of my obvious maddness for the kitties i might have passed on the viral disease to my fellow mates as well..

X___X

 well... i am only too happy to have fellow addicts!! ^__^''
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and after our very bad choice of dinner...
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Guess what!!
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HHAHAH..
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the kitty madness truly began...
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my heart is at peace now...i sleep so much better..
:)
 
 

Wednesday, 7 November 2012

Savings

A couple of days ago, i read somewhere about other people being able to save money. Not because they were financially smart or earned more but because they tend to have other people pay for them.

Tonight i'm feeling miffed.

I live with 6 other gals. And while the cases of missing food, milk & juice from the fridges and cupboard is nothing new to those who have experienced living with others. What pisses me off is some certain flatmates who think nothing of repeatedly asking for noodles, eggs and onions and etc.

Maybe i might be sounding very cheap but the fact of the matter is, i earn my living and so do they. If i can buy the very basic necessities like cup noodles or eggs- why can't they?? It is not like noodles cost a bomb- for heaven sake it just bloody Rs10 each!!!! Go buy your own.



Especially when you start asking for noodles seeing just me enter the house from grocery shopping. WTF???? i have not even changed clothes and you shamelessly ask for some whatever... seriouslly WTH???

 I get even more cheesed off, when the very people who "borrows" a packet of maggi never fails to berate me on my frequency of me eating instant noodles and it's health effects.


And coming back to my earlier point, such a person will always have a healthy bank balance because they simply live off others' money. For example, if i am going for a grocery shopping, a certain someone always requests me to buy her milk, egg, flour etc etc saying she doesn't have the money/no change and would give later. Only to conveniently forget to give the cash later on. Instead give more list of item the next week. 

Hello, am i your F!@#$%^  mother or what??


 

Friday, 2 November 2012

Puppets

Acting cute & playing with puppets...
 
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coincidendly, while trying to type the word "Puppets" i mis-typed to "Puffets". Any straight woman ever been to one?? A banquet event for gays. Wonder how does that feel? A straight woman in a party full of homosexual guys. Would you feel safe, dejected or deliriously happy (as gay men are like women without the competitive component over the straight guys)...???
 
 
 

Thursday, 1 November 2012

All hallows Eve....

What a day.

All Hallows Evening. Yup, my pockets are surly very Hallow..... Salary not yet credited into my account. Sighz..... -- ___--!!

Being a Wednesday- wanted to have McEgg Muffins!! The reason is kinda complicated but if you wanna know here it is- if not - skip it!!   I'm a vegeterian on all days except Wednesdays & Sundays. yeah, i could be totally vegeterian and totally not eat meat at all, right?? But the fact is, i love eating meat (except for Pork, Beef and Mutton, long story  @_____@....), but it's doesnt quite agree with my body, so i limit to eating meat only on Wednesday & Sundays. yeah... i know does not make any sense, but- hey it's my Life, if i dun wanna eat toh- i am not gonna eat, O.K??
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Any went with a collegue of mine_N to the nearest McDs . btw she also mad love McEgg Muffins too!! ^___^
Breakfast Menu
am i not lucky to live in one of the few cities??
 
  
  Guess what i saw....
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    HAppY Meal
 
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    Hello Kitty!!!!
Toys

Fuffing CUTE!!!! ,
i don't really care at all about the batman or robin or superman or the other guy but Hell yeah i want my Hello Kitty Toys!!!


of course i had to go get myself a Happy Meal to make myself  Happy, made- N   buy a Happy Meal also...we both chose the RED Hello Kitty...

CUte Hor!!!

and Look the <3 lights up too!!
 
too GOD DAMM MAD CUTE!!!
her <3 is a gift & it lights up for me!!!
 
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so it was 2 HAppy Meals with a side of Peri peri fires...
oh..it was garlicy oniony spicy & yummy!!
heart clogging chock--a-block with fat and loaded to the Glory Land with MSG but who cares!
 I eat fast food maybe 0-3 times in a month, so i'm fine.
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Photo: It's getting hot in here. 
Our solution? Grab another fry and make it hotter!
Cover Photo
it's said it's back my popular demand...ummm... it was first time tasting it so...yeah... the taste is like regular good old french fries and wai wai masala...
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in addition, i had just some a tiny bit of grocery shopping so...

 
slabbed on a teaspoon or so of the cheese spread i had bought onto the egg muffing, layered the perperi fries and truly enjoyed my McEgg Muffin.
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on other news, the tropical monsoon Nilam was creating Havoc with our sanity as it threatened us to break the puny 'lil umbrella i has borrowed fm a flatmate.
 
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 so it was basically me going...
 
Shit!.... Fuck.....
Fuck...... FUCKKKarghhh!!
Fucking pls don break, it not mine.
Praying that the umbrella would not break.
 
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most difficult short walk ever..
hope all every1 affected by Sandy or Nilam remains safe & warm.
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 last pic before signing off
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 me with my Red Heart HELLO KITTY!

i am on a mission to Buy the remainding 3 designs...
umm...
thank god, tommorow is a Public holiday here in Bengaluru..
i think i might just decide to have Happy Meal for Breakfast, Lunch & Dinner......
 
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ps: Mcdonalds has this fun game on their site, go play it out here